Thursday, October 25, 2012

God Provides

Shortly after we moved to Florida, we were offered a free place to live. It felt like God was giving us the way out-the light at the end of the tunnel. We would actually be able to afford for me to stay home and live in  Florida with all the crazy high cost of living. Well, we all know how that turned out....

When we found out that the house was no longer available-after months and months of planning, preparing, working, cleaning-we were pretty devastated. How would we make our new situation work? Where would we live? Would I be able to continue to stay home?

When I quit my job last December to move to Florida with Ted, I had mixed emotions. I was super, super, super excited to get to stay home with Hannah but sad to be leaving such a great job. It was a really, really great job. Flexible hours, home by early afternoon, doing what I loved with people I loved being with. And I actually got paid pretty dang good for only working nine months of the year. Hannah was safe at home with Ted and all was good. I knew the possibility of finding a job like that again in this lifetime were slim to none. It was hard to walk away-but I was excited for what I was walking into.

After the moldy, homeless summer-it just didn't seem like things were going to fall in place.

But if I learned anything from being "homeless" for 10 weeks, I learned that God provides. We always had a place to stay-always. Sometimes we didn't know where we would live at the end of the week, but we would get a text from a friend offering their place for the exact day that we had to move out of our current one. God's hand was in it the entire time.

So on the very same day that we found out the house was no longer available for us to live in, it didn't even surprise me that I got a potential job offer for a job I didn't even apply for. I took an at-home job as the nursery coordinator at our new parish. It just fell in my lap! Not even a week later, I got a call from a friend asking if I would consider becoming her son's speech therapist. She offered to watch Hannah while I worked with him so I wouldn't have to find childcare.  It really couldn't have been more perfect or come at a better time.

The blessings have been tremendous. I spend a decent amount of time working on nursery stuff in the evenings, but the money I get from it is keeping us afloat. And combined with the income I'll be making from working with just one client-I'm actually making about the same amount of money each month that we would have saved if we had lived in the free house!

All of my fears about Hannah have been quelled-she LOVES spending time with my friend and her other children while I go to "work" just two half-hours a week. It gives her a built in play date in a loving, fun, holy home twice a week-something I had really been seeking out for her after our attempt at a Mother's Morning Out ended horribly. My friend gets discounted therapy for her son. I get to work with preschoolers again and do some of the things I love-like write reports! Blessings all around.

So we don't have free rent-we write a monthly check just like everyone else. And with the promise of free rent being dangled in front of us for so long, it still hurts a little. But the jobs I've been given-jobs that allow me to stay home with my girl and be a speech therapist-are an unforeseen blessing that's more than we ever expected.

The words of our wedding gospel echo in my mind all the time. “Therefore I tell you, do not worry about your life, what you will eat or drink; or about your body, what you will wear. Is not life more than food, and the body more than clothes? Look at the birds of the air; they do not sow or reap or store away in barns, and yet your heavenly Father feeds them. Are you not much more valuable than they? Can any one of you by worrying add a single hour to your life? (Matthew 6:25-27)

We have no reason to worry. God has provided for us every step of the way, even if He sometimes makes us wait a few months to see the answer. We are so grateful. So blessed.

Wednesday, October 17, 2012

Oh Fall, Where the Hell are You!

My sweet friend, Haley-a Florida native, pinned a quote by Anne of Green Gables the other day. Something like "I'm so grateful we live in a world with Octobers." I completely agree with Anne, Octobers are beautiful. But Haley, on the other hand, is dead wrong.

Because Florida does not have October. We're 17 days in and still no sign of it.

I wore shorts and a t-shirt at the playground on Monday. And was sweating. In the shade. Because it was 91 freaking degrees!

Leaves are falling, but they do that all year long. And they're just brown or green. Do people in Florida even know that leaves can be other colors?

No crisp in the air.

No feeling great in jeans and boots.

No need for a jacket-you can hardly handle short sleeves.

I make pumpkin oatmeal with pecans and chili and soup-but it's all a lie. Our damn air conditioner is still on. At night!

I'm still getting eaten alive by mosquitos! I got three bites yesterday-one on the way to the car, one in the car, and the last one in my living room.

I've got my toes a nice shade of mocha-ish but my feet are still in flip flops.

And to top it all off, I found out this week that there are NO pumpkin patches in town!

Where are you Fall? Do you exist in the south?

My summer wardrobe is exhausted. Will I ever wear a sweater again?

I thought Mississippi Falls were a disappointment, now I'm counting down the days until we go back for a visit. Alisha-save a few yellow leaves for me. And don't laugh when I change my clothes three times a day when we're up there-I gotta get these outfits in.

Fall, I miss you.

Tuesday, October 16, 2012

This Moment

Despite the fact that Hannah woke up an hour and a half earlier than normal.....combined with the fact that I went to bed late because I was watching the Cardinal's game (dang Eastern time zone....)......and topped off with the Cardinal's loss.......

we had an awesome day today.

One that needs remembering.

Lots of snuggles and cuddles and unprompted back scratches from my little girl.

Playing in my bedroom with nothing but mom's books, pillows, and underwear for an hour and a half.

She asked me to get the crucifix down off the wall and proceeded to kiss Jesus ("susus"). Then she kissed His hands and feet and handed Him to me for me to do the same. What? Who is this kid? She has never seen anyone do this! So we kissed Jesus' "boo boos" and told Him we loved Him.

Then she tried to get me to nurse Him......

When I laid down on the bed, instead of telling me "up up!", she let me lay there for at least five minutes while she covered my body in kleenxes.

She decided she was NOT going to read Old MacDonald with me-despite it being her favorite book yesterday-and every time I sang "E-I-E-I__" she cutely responded, "NO!" I like her version better.

Around lunch time she went into the kitchen, opened the dishwasher, got out a plate, set it on the table, climbed into her high chair, buckled herself in, and made the sign for "eat." Girl knows what she wants. This story was only topped by Ted telling me that the other day she opened the dishwasher, got out the dish detergent, shoved it into the dishwasher, closed the door and tried to turn it on.

I ate leftover pumpkin cake with cream cheese icing during her nap today. And drank coffee. And blogged! And that was after I prepped dinner. Who am I?

I'm wearing tights, even though it's not cold out yet.

We're going to Old Navy this afternoon.

Ted's coming home from work unexpectedly early today.

We found a package of pork chops from our pig in the bottom on the freezer when we moved and are having them tonight. We thought we were out! What a glorious surprise. I'm making them this way-they taste just like you're eating them in grandma's kitchen.

We got to Skype with my mom.

Hannah made the rooster sound every time I asked. I can't get enough of it.

Happy Tuesday!

Sunday, October 14, 2012

Sick in Bed by the Numbers

2...days last week that Ted was sick with a nasty stomach bug

57...times I bragged about not getting it and having a better immune system than him

1.5...days after Ted was better when I got the bug. dammit

5...nights sleeping in a separate room from my husband

X...number of days since my last shower. I'm waaaay too embarrassed to say how long it's actually been since I've bathed. Let's just say I was overdue when I woke up Friday morning....and still haven't had one Sunday afternoon.

4...hours of puking

12...hours of fever

72...ounces of gatorade consumed

1...reassuring call from my doctor with a very specific explanation of what would require going to the hospital. Thankfully, none of those things have happened.

44...total hours I've been locked in my bedroom while Ted has completely cared for Hannah. I've been in here since 9:00 Friday night!

6...more hours to go until I can come out. I feel fine now but am waiting 24 hours until after my last fever in hopes that Hannah won't get it. This thing is SUPER contagious!

47...hours since I've held my little girl :(

47...hours since I've kissed my little girl :(

47...hours since I've played with my little girl :(

7...times that Ted has taken her out to play in the backyard so I can watch her from my window

236...texts between me and Ted even though he's just in the other room. The longer we can keep Hannah from figuring out I'm in here-the better!

12...seconds Ted has to drop off food and drink before Hannah starts hollering and comes looking for him.

6...times he's affectionately referred to her as his little "ankle biter"

1...father-daughter trip to the nursery to buy some grass seed for the backyard. And if you doubted that Ted is caring for her completely on his own, check out those socks with crocks :)


10...times I've thought, "I'm so grateful that I married a man who is capable of caring for his own children!" Not only is she fed, clothed, changed, and bathed-but the squeals of delight and laughter I hear outside my door indicate she's having a wonderful weekend.

100..times I've thought, "Why isn't the house falling apart without me? And why isn't Hannah asking for me every five seconds? Doesn't she miss me?!?!"

2...movies watched: Mirror Mirror (loved it! weird but wonderful!) and October Baby (I cried and cried!)

750...times I've checked Pinterest and/or Facebook. Come on people! Update so I have something to help me pass the time!

1...baby shower missed. Bummer. I had a really pretty dress picked out and was so excited to wear it.

1...Holy Mass missed. The only other time I've missed Mass in my adult life was when I was in labor with Hannah.

1...appointment with our doula missed.

1...afternoon spent with lots of great families at the Families Following Christ event missed.

0...productive things I've done with my time off. Organize and upload pictures-nope. Type that super long email I've been meaning to-nope. Work on our family photo books or shop early for Christmas online-nope and nope. But check fantasy football hourly? Or the SEC football scores all day yesterday? You bet.

20...times each hour I've felt this baby kick! I had no idea he was this active! It turns out, I just never sit down long enough to notice all the acrobatic stunts going on inside of me! And here I thought we were going to have a calm child....

15...hours until I get to see my sweet baby. I can't come out until after she goes to bed tonight, so I have to wait until the morning. Unless she wakes up in the middle of the night....which, for once, I'm actually kind of hoping happens.

5-4...my prediction for the Cardinal's score tonight. With St. Louis winning of course. It's on Fox instead of cable so we actually get to watch it! And it starts after my quarantined time is over so I get sit on the couch next to my husband! And eat popcorn because I'm confident I won't throw it up.

So how was your weekend? :)

Friday, October 12, 2012

20 Down, 20ish to Go!

(I'll actually be 21 weeks in a few hours....better get this post up quickly!)

I can't believe we've hit the 20 week mark in this pregnancy! It is flying by!

Overall, I'm feeling pretty good. I'm getting less and less tired each day-just as the nesting urge is kicking in! I sound like I'm about two weeks past my due date-huffing and puffing, grunting when I sit or stand. I can't imagine what I'll sound like in 20 more weeks!

Baby is moving more and more. Not nearly as much as big sister, but enough to keep me reassured during the day and for Ted to get a kick or two before going to bed. They're getting stronger and stronger and I'm loving every second of it. Tonight I saw the kick from the outside for the first time-love those bumps!

I'm off progesterone-my levels look great!


Some pictures of our beautiful baby:



We had a level two ultrasound last week and it was really neat. We didn't get that with Hannah. She measured EVERYTHING and it lasted almost a half hour. No peeks at the gender-we made sure we made that clear the second we walked in! Everyone is guessing boy. I'm definitely carrying differently, but I don't put much stock in that. Ted thinks boy. I thought boy at the beginning but now I don't know.

The bump:

The  bump with Hannah at 20 weeks. I'd say I'm a a bit bigger with number two...


Yeah, those shorts definitely don't fit this time around.....

Every night before bedtime Hannah blesses us with holy water. She blesses our foreheads and then my belly when we tell her to "bless the baby." She loves pulling up my shirt and pointing to my belly when I ask her where the baby is. Recently she discovered a little scar on my belly button from one of my surgeries. She wouldn't leave it alone-it bothered her so much and she wanted it gone! I had to tell her it was "yuck" to get to her stop obsessing over it. (she understand that we don't touch things that are "yuck".) Now, anytime she sees my stomach she runs over to it, points to my belly button, and says "tuck!"

She's figuring out that big sister role quite nicely I'd say. :)

This post was all over the place, but so is my brain. Don't expect anything coherent in the near future.